1. got my breakfast and medications down
2. got a package prepared and put it, along with the one I prepared yesterday, out for pick up.
3. filled the ice cube tray
4. started a load of laundry
5. got dressed
6. chatted online with a dear woman who can use my support, now and then
If, dear reader, this list looks strange to you, you probably have not been faced with my kind of depression or anxiety or what ever this is.
I awoke, this morning, feeling good. The long list of things I need to do did not oppress me. I felt like I could do them all -- in a single bound! By eleven o'clock I wanted to crawl back into bed. I forced myself to do a little more, including starting that laundry load (modern conveniences are such a blessing in the household chores arena) then, since one of my tasks is to send an email and I had sat for an hour, in I came. I wrote (typed?) the above list to remind myself that I actually had done something, this morning. I didn't even bother with the fact that I put away a few dishes from the drainer.
Seeing so much to be done often overwhelms me. I feel there is no point in doing the little nibbles that I know I can do, because there is so much more to do. I think I need to start celebrating the tiny triumphs; the little clear area, the meal cooked, the box straightened and put away! Perhaps then I won't feel quite so worthless, when it comes to my housekeeping. If I don't feel so worthless, maybe I will get more done. We shall see. It can't hurt to try, can it?
