Time to Face It!

Inspired by Brenda, at Cozy Little House , I have decided to go ahead with an idea that has been rolling around in my mind for a little while.  Brenda accidentally posted what she had thought private.  In the world of blogging, many try to keep it pretty.  There is enough ugly, most of us think, I shall not add more. 

There may be some who share one of my private and embarrassing "uglies."  I am a "Messie," as defined by Sandra Felton in her books.  I have CHAOS, "Can't Have Anyone Over Syndrome," as defined by Fly Lady.  This is affecting my family and is darkening my own life, deepening my depression.  The way I have responded to things that have happened in my life, has made the problem more pressing.  I need a change in the way I think.  It's not just that I dislike housework.  I don't think of it.  I hardly see the mess until it intrudes upon my thoughts.  Perhaps I cannot find something I'm pretty sure I own.  Sometimes I want to offer hospitality, but have not the courage.  You may be able to fill in the blank. 

So, this is my journey.  I shall examine the mess.  I have already begun to release the things which are not as special to me as being comfortable in my home.  Would you like to come along?  Encouragement is welcome, maybe actually necessary.  Scorn and censure will not help. 

So to start, here is my kitchen table. A few days ago, I cleared it off and put on a fresh cloth.  

   Kinda pretty, isn't it?  Well, I did it to remind myself that I can have a pretty house. 

If you could see the whole picture:

 An unfinished sorting project, a basket of laundry waiting to be folded, and a few more things that haven't made it to where they go, or don't even have a home, sure add up to a mess.

So, that's enough soul baring for one day.  Let's hope this journey leads to a better place -- literally!