I Did...

1. got my breakfast and medications down
2. got a package prepared and put it, along with the one I prepared yesterday, out for pick up.
3. filled the ice cube tray
4. started a load of laundry
5. got dressed
6. chatted online with a dear woman who can use my support, now and then

If, dear reader, this list looks strange to you, you probably have not been faced with my kind of depression or anxiety or what ever this is.

I awoke, this morning, feeling good.  The long list of things I need to do did not oppress me.  I felt like I could do them all -- in a single bound!  By eleven o'clock I wanted to crawl back into bed.  I forced myself to do a little more, including starting that laundry load (modern conveniences are such a blessing in the household chores arena) then, since one of my tasks is to send an email and I had sat for an hour, in I came.  I wrote (typed?) the above list to remind myself that I actually had done something, this morning.  I didn't even bother with the fact that I put away a few dishes from the drainer. 

Seeing so much to be done often overwhelms me.  I feel there is no point in doing the little nibbles that I know I can do, because there is so much more to do.  I think I need to start celebrating the tiny triumphs; the little clear area, the meal cooked, the box straightened and put away!  Perhaps then I won't feel quite so worthless, when it comes to my housekeeping.  If I don't feel so worthless, maybe I will get more done.  We shall see.  It can't hurt to try, can it?

No "After" Pictures? Nope! Didn't Even Finish the "Before!"

I took a series of photos on Monday,
planning to do an in depth "what's wrong
with this picture" post. 
Today, I got this far...
Yesterday, I needed to do
something for someone.
Today, I was fighting
(or not fighting)
a little depression.

"There's always tomorrow..."
I guess.

I'm Still Here... Happy St. Valentine's Day

I may not be doing much but I'm still
interested in having my house look pretty,
be comfortable and function well.
This is in the bathroom!

Progress...

My dear husband wanted to know
what I wanted to do, today.

I told him I wanted to get the
Christmas tree down,
the dishes done,
dinner made
and
for him to put together the
second set of book cases
I bought on clearance
quite some time ago.

The tree came down when
I brushed by it.
I took off the rest of the
decorations
and Uncle Si (DH)
took the tree out of the
stand and carried the
tree outside, for me.

THEN
he put together that pesky
book case.
He and Oneson carried
it up to the attic, too.

So, the tall blue box, right foreground,
in this picture from December,
is now waiting for recycling day,
rather than leaning on the
wall where we walk into the living room
collecting other boxes.

The dishes?

Well, I filled the drainer twice.
They are not all done.

(Progress,
not perfection.)

...and the chili was good.

I'm Not Fussin'

We were rather ill and my
clean up project got slowed
down.  I was determined
to add some "pretty" among
the stuff, anyway.

So, even though I wanted to have it
look nicer, in here, I'm satisfied, on
most levels.  We had a nice day.
Some things looked nice.
We had a simple meal and
some nice treats -
not as many as I sometimes have made.
I think we all were relaxed
and had a nice time.

Good enough!

Happy Christmas!

Trying to Focus

on the good parts.
The tree.

The table.



And not the stacks...



... and stacks...

... of things that are not
getting done.
I'm less miserable, anyway.
I will get them done.
Rome wasn't built in a day.
Slow and steady wins the race.

ok,
then...

Progress is not Fast Enough! Perfection, Now!! (pant, pant)

This is how my living room looks, now.
Well, right now my sister is sitting in that chair, as we both do some catching up online, so it actually looks much better than this.  My sisters (I have three) brighten up any room.
Anyway, I want it all done!  Right now!  I'm laughing at myself.  I have been having a period of physical discomfort, family has been around (yippee) at my Dad's, next door and Oneson and my DH have been passing a nasty little cold around.  These are not good enough excuses for my impatient self.  I still want more on the tree and less on the floor!

This is Thanksgiving Day.  I think progress has been made.  I have to see the glass as half full -- and the living room as half empty!  Now, I am really amusing myself.